What a journey it has been in Twenty Eleven.

What a journey it has been in Twenty Eleven. But praise God the ending is so much better than the beginning. In the start of Twenty Eleven it seemed as if my whole world was upside down and was spinning out of control. Mentally I was a basket case and I wasn't sure what direction I was going in. It seemed that anything that could go wrong was going wrong. 


In the latter part of Twenty Ten I had started seeking the Lord for change and direction in my life. My prayer was for a closer and much stronger relationship with the Lord. I didn't want just a casual relationship with God but I wanted to know him on a personal level like I had never before known. But it seemed that the more I prayed and poured out my heart to God and ask him to use me the further I was going away from him.


It was like I was being attacked in every area of my life. In my church life it was like everything I had been taught over the past few years just did not make scenes anymore. I was trying to take the word and apply it to my situations and confessing and quoting scriptures but it was like I was going backwards. I was confused and I couldn't understand why it was not working for me. I thought what is wrong with me? Why was I not able to over come these issues I was having? I kept hearing the same message, get in the word, search out the word for scripture that applies to your situation and pray and apply it and you will over come. I was making confessions of who I was in God and on and on. 


On my job Twenty Ten ended on a sour note and Twenty Eleven stared off the same way. It was people issues and the biggest part of Twenty Eleven was that way just one situation it seemed after another. I didn't like what was taking place and I was so caught up in it all. I couldn't fix it. I didn't know how to fix it or me.


I didn't like me and I didn't like what was happening to me. Mentally I was just about ready to give up. I felt like I was at the end of my rope and I was ready to let go. I started thinking it was useless to even try any more. But what do you do? Going back to where God had brought me from so far was not the answer. There was nothing there but unhappiness, shame and pain. I certainly didn't want go go back there. Something had to give one way or the other but I knew I could not keep on going the way I was. 


I wanted a relationship with God more than anything but I just felt a if I was failing and no matter what I did or how hard I tried it was as if I kept failing and coming up short. I had a problem with trust because of things I had seen growing up and I didn't trust people in relationships. Even worse I realized that I didn't trust God and I had to tell him I didn't trust him.


Just before Easter in Twenty Eleven the Lord lead me to the Sonlife Broadcasting Network. I had left the church I had been attending because I didn't feel like I was being fed there anymore and the word of faith message that was being taught was not what I needed.


I sat down one day and started flipping though the channels and came across Sonlife Broadcasting Network. The program on at the time was The Message of The Cross and I sat there and listen to it for a while and it caught my attention. During this program they were discussing one of the issues that I had been dealing with and was explaining that it was something a lot of people go through and experience. Brother Swaggart also address how to deal with and overcome the issue. He started explaining that the only way to overcome and live a victorious life is through faith in Jesus Christ and The Cross. Hearing The Message of The Cross has changed my life and has brought me into a closer relationship with the Lord. Learning that there is nothing that I can do short of believing in Jesus Christ and Him Crucified to change anything about me has changed my life. It has brought me into a closer relationship with the Lord and it has taught me to trust him like I have never trusted anyone or anything before. 


Jesus Christ and Him Crucified is not only the source of my salvation but is the source of my sanctification as well. Through Jesus Christ and the finished work of the cross is the source of my every need, every blessing and there is no other way other than Jesus Christ and Him Crucified than can supply what I need in this life and the life to come. 


My walk with the Lord now is a daily walk and I know that I am not capable of doing anything with out him. I know that no matter what comes at me the battle(s) have already been won. I know that with out Jesus I am nothing. 


I thank God he loves me enough to walk with me daily to guide and direct me through the Holy Spirit.


Life has a new meaning and a new outlook. There is nothing that God will not do for those who will properly place their faith in Jesus Christ and Him Crucified as the means of all blessings and glory.


God is no respecter of man what he has does for one he will do all who will just believe and trust in him.